A young man found himself without a finger and piece of paper to thank for it. That piece lay at his side, reminding him of the past three months. A shrill wind of cold brushed his neck each time he glanced over that piece of paper by his side. The memory of stupidity and the price it incurred was a compilation of thoughts he did not like. Try as he might, he could not have solved the problems in any other way. A finger was a price, and he paid. It seems, the other price, would be found here today.
Sketches of the 1200
—I need a name bloodier and better than this.
The artist, the young writer who worshipped his letters, did not try to distract his mind away from the constant reminder beside him with his scribbling hand. He did not need to. He was fully focused on what he wanted to do. It helped, of course, with keeping his eye away from his bandaged hand and glaring scrap of paper; but it did not keep him from creasing his brow hard over his work.
Stone bathes whenever the sun is high above. It is a most jarring kind of bathing. The stone has no dignity to speak of as its naked purity reflects the Sun’s eyes on unfamiliar onlookers, a kind of arrogance that pierces and blinds. Those who have known that purity since birth have chosen to walk with eyes averted.
—no. This is too above itself. I have yet to find comfort in using the present tense of narratives. Perhaps, in some far of future, I would find something sweet in the action ongoing. But, for now, the action done appeals more to my taste.
—I desperately need a better title for this little collection.
—What do I see when I walk these streets of dirt, stone, and cobble?
He scribbled and scribbled on the paper he brought with him. The ink was sloppy on the ragged surface of the paper. He had tried to procure better sheets, but the price was too much for just mere practice. He’d wait till the time that his hand was better than what was needed. He’d wait till his words were better than the best he’d read before.
A young man sees faces among the bustle. These faces have no names.
—What in fuck? No. No. Fuck No! I do what I do with taste. I do what I do apart from what everybody else can do. This is no better. This is no good. I am better than the best. No!
—I am sketching the city as the city should be. I am sketching, not looking myself in the mirror.
—Why am I so scared? Ink drops on paper. Paper takes the ink within it and loves it. Together they bear the sense of a mind. The mind that bled the ink.
—No. What is truth? What the fuck is truth? What is my truth? Where is my truth?
A young man walked the ways of a city.
—Have no fear. Have no fear, no fear at all. These words will stay. These words will stay and remain forever in the hearts of those who touch it.
A young man walked the way of the city. He walked by the side of the road as carts and carriages passed him by. He chose to let this way touch him. He let his ears notice the crisp taps of hooves on cobble stones. He…
—No. this is not a story. This is not my story. What now? What now? What in Bloody Nethers now?
Matiel looked about to see if the man he was waiting for was here. Among those that thronged to fill this place with noise, none reminded him of the man that took his finger.
A breath touched his lips. He licked them as a barmaid approached with what he wanted. He didn’t spare her the worthiness of his eyes. His attention lay on trying to find the man that left him the scrap of paper by his side. His brow thickened as the numbness in his left hand throbbed. He didn’t dare look at it. He didn’t like the fact that he didn’t dare to do anything at all. He resented the price he was given. He resented the man who gave him the price. He resented the fact that he had no power to do anything about it.
He would have to do something about it. He would have to think of a way. Matiel paid for nothing.
A young man sat on a bench by the side of a cobblestoned road.
The White Stones of Kings
—The tea is helping. I think, I think, I may have something here.
The stones bathed in sunlight. They would not shy away as they stood there in naked purity. That loss of modesty pierced through my eyes and blinded them. It glared at those that found it too arrogant while steeling its gaze on those it awed. The walls were too tall for those it awed. Those who dared look up found nothing there but a brightness. No one deserved its towering brightness.
All those who passed, passed by with their heads bowed or eyes onward. Those that followed the crisp tapping of hooves on cobblestone chose to hide in thick lumbered carriages or roofed carts. They tried to busy themselves with bustle and business. All tried to ignore the naked purity with talk of money, news, gossip, prices, vegetables, Kings, unworthy filth—whatever it was that could take away the screaming whiteness from flicker to flicker.
—Bloody Nethers! It’s too biased. Too biased. A careful man of letters could so easily see through it. I must forget myself. My words are not for myself.
—But what of the poem?
—Bah! I despise poetry. The narrative is my only game.
—But what if?
Matiel let his eyes stray from his work once more. He moved to clean up his table, laying together the sheets he had used. He was careful enough to notice other eyes watching him. Here, inside a place he had never been to before, he set himself apart too much. Sitting alone on a table, minding too much his own business, and that business happened to be scratching over paper. Matiel had come to the thought that the people that filled this place were the kinds that didn’t take lightly the presence of threatening strangers. Being different was enough of a threat. Eyes that looked at no one yet looked too sharp for comfort, just added to the disturbance on a regular day for any fob of a man who enjoyed this box of filth.
The Stones of a king
These stones are white
They glare
Their eyes are steel
They bathe
In sunlight, piercing
They blind
And love the sky
They stand
So tall, so very tall
And none
Shall ever fall
—The Poem! The poem is so simple. Any man who knows his letter will see my hand and this! I need a name. I need a name that no man can know beyond the words.
—I will have to think on this more. I wish to capture a flicker, a moment, a single burn of the soul that lives within the Vigilant Gates. So far, I have written nothing but my own thoughts on the matter. I’ll need something better. I’ll need something neutral. I need something truer. I need to walk these walls as a man of the Western Kingdom, not Matiel Escariot.
—I hate poetry. I hate the entire art of it. I like this.
—I’ll need something simpler and more concise though. If I am to write for all, all must understand what I write.
Matiel was done with what he wanted. He grabbed his bag and shoved all his papers inside. He folded them cleanly at first, waiting for the ink to soak in and dry. He then capped his ink and placed his pen into its case. He made sure the cap on his ink was tight, before he placed it inside a small pouch along with the case of his pen. These he set aside the papers in his bad and shut it tight with its string. He then set the satchel on his lap before he took another sip of his tea. There was no honey and milk for his tea here. Tea was even a surprising availability here.
Now, there was only the piece of paper before him left. He smiled.
Matiel smiled.
He turned it to its back and wrote down another garble of words that came so suddenly to him.
TRUTH
I
Am
GOD
He was careful to slip that piece back into his pocket, and then he waited.